I brought this pain upon me. No one else. Everyone has their own little dirty secret. Like a criminal who never get caught, they will keep doing until eventually they got caught.. Its just funny how things happens years ago.. At times I let it go. At times, I find myself falling into the pit of fucking insecurity, because I was shamed by my own deed. But I know all these happens for a reason. A reason for me to change. I am trying to change in fact I’m changing. The Ego for acting like things never happened can just blow it back like a movie playing in my own fucking mind. Over and over again. Its a serious lesson learnt that I’m just gonna let it go and feel extremely grateful that it happened. Because if it doesn’t happen at that point of time, bad things that is going to happen will be greater, that’s a fact.

And as my story goes.. There is no happy ending to the things you do for the thrill of doing things without thinking the consequences of your love ones.. Curiosity already killed the cat, I was nearly killed.. For playing with too much fire, the consolation prize is the extreme emotional pain of guilt carrying around at the back of my mind every single day..

Fulfillment is about giving, loving, compromise, appreciate everything and everyone. And that’s the happy ending.

Not some fucked up fairytale you made yourselves to believe.